i see not the distance you have walked but the very distance we are apart.
i see you drift away further and further away from me.
the distance so great, the gap so wide, the length unmeasurable.
the pain, the memories, the hurt you brought still lingers on...
it does not leave with you.
i know not why the reasons so.....
wx at 10/23/2004 11:09:00 PM
The day has finally come. Was I highly anticipating it? Was I avoiding? I know not of…
I walked in during 2002, left at 2004. I took a bus there and left on the very same bus too. Coincidental? Serendipity? Providence? I know not of…
It could well have been a sign, a premonition of some sort. It could have been my extra sensitivity. The years have passed and the time has left. The sand of time seep through my very hard as I try my utmost strength to prevent it. It’s been to no avail. The reminiscences of us blew pass as I look back with awe and exhilaration. Those memories fleet by my cerebral beyond control. The thoughts we shared flooded my mind before I have any time for retrospect…
2002 was new and foreboding. 2004 was mature and fond.
2002 was fresh. 2004 was hackneyed.
2002 was great. 2004 was fantastic.
Time and tide wait for none of us. They came and left in a flash. They left us nothing but true emotionally richness that I would not have traded for anything else. They left me with a wealth of feelings and a vastness of relations that I could not have dreamt of. They left me with scars and twinge but at the same time, left me the very scars of mellowness and maturity. Life was bitter sweet with them around.
The end of a chapter, the end of a conclusion.
The start of a new one with memories of the past.
The commencement of new episodes with more to come.
Bye to you all my friends but “bye” is only a superficial time frame that we restrict ourselves to. Let us be free from such restrains and let goodbye not be forever…
wx at 10/16/2004 10:53:00 PM
When you are together with that special someone,you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them. At that moment,you are in love. Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone. Then, you are in love. Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call!At that moment, you are in love. If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love. When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your answering machine because of one message from that special someone, you are in love.When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone. Then, you are in love.You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you cannot avoid that person's special attraction.
At that moment, you are in love.
While you are reading this page, if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that person.
wx at 10/03/2004 05:15:00 PM
Received the undesired piece of thing. Was disgusted by what I received but its over. What can I do but to stare at it blankly, stare at it languidly? Really wanted to be apathetic about it but can’t make myself to do it. Look forward is what I can do now, treating this as passé, don’t think about it anymore. Can I expunge it, can I obliterate it? I know not of…
Had a tiring week. Was totally exhausted. There are so many things to be done and so many other miscellaneous things that propped out of nowhere. The unexpected is so vexing, so arduous. Don’t really know what was I doing at times. Mind is as blank as a sheet of paper, as clear as liquid crystals…
Wonder if my heart could be as clear as that or not? Really want to forget many despondent memories but cant seem to do it. Really wanted to wipe out the foul things on screen but cant seem to work, actually nothing seems to work. Sigh, cleaning up the previous mess could be so emotionally daunting… its sometimes hurt more than you could ever imagine.
It really is…
wx at 10/02/2004 10:20:00 PM