read that from somewhere, rationally speaking it could be waste of moments to read it, but to come to think about it, this might have occurred without us knowing...
Life...
I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so
called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky
hair, and wished she was mine.
But she didnt notice me like that, I knew it.
After class she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before and
handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to
know that I don`t wanna Be just friends, I love her
but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why...
11th Grade
The phone rang. on the other end it was her.
Shewas in tears, mumbling on and on about how
her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she
didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her
on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she
was mine.
After 2 hours, a drew barrymore movie, & 3 bags of
chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked
at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to knowthat I
don`t wanna be just friends, I love her but I'm
just too shy, and i don't knoiw wHy
Senior Year. The day before prom she walked to my
locker. "My date is Sick" she said; he`s not qonna go. well
I didnt have a date and in 7th qrade we made a
promise that if neither of us had dates we
would go together just as "best friends". So we did.
Prom niqht
After everything was over I was standing at
her front door step. I stared at her, She smiled at
me I want her to be mine, but she doesn`t think of
me like that and I know it. Then she said "I Had the
best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to kno that I
don`t want to be just friends, I love her but Im
just too shy, and I dont kNow why
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched
as her perfect body loated like an anqel up on
staqe to qet her diploma. I wanted her to be mine,
but she didnt notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home, she came to me in her
smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her.
then she lifted her head from my shoulder and
said, you`re my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a
kiss on the Cheek. I wanna tell her, I want her to
know that don`t wanna be just friends, I love her
but I`m just too shy, and I don`t know why
A Few Years Later now I sit in the pews of the
church. that girl is gettinq married now. I
watched her say "i do" and drive off to her new I wanted
her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that
and I knew it. But before she Drove away, she came
to me n said you came!" She said. "thanks!" and
kissed me on the cheek. I wanna tell her, I want
her to know that i dont wanna be just friends, I
love her but I`m just too shy, and i don`t know
why.
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a
qirl who used to be my "best friend". at the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote in her
hiqh school years.
This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he
was mine, but he doesn`t notice me like that, and I
know it. i wanna tell him, i want him to know
that I don`t wanna be just friends, I love him but I'm
just
too shy, and I don`t know why. I wish he
would tell
me he loved me...I wish I did too. I thought to
myself, and I cried...
wx at 8/30/2006 11:06:00 PM
there were many fuckers this week... damn bloody pist with their fucking ass... dont give me those bloody shit fuckers!!! i dont need them, take them elsewhere bastards... damn bloody pist off and snub by their fucking attitude!!! damn those fuckers out there... anyway saw this damn blog and was again snub by it!!!
fucking bastards, pist me off, want to say more but damn tired... just want them to fuck off man!!!
fucking bastard ass that pist people off!!!
wx at 8/11/2006 10:57:00 PM
What is left for me to say? I saw a few “people” that I knew at the ferry terminal the other day. I was like in front of them but we just didn’t bother to acknowledge each other’s presence. A mere entity that didn’t quite seem to belong to this very dimension.
Being acquaintances once so not long ago but it seems that we have been exonerated the responsibility to have to say hi to one another. Why?
I didn’t take the initiative to speak coz was there really a need for such superficial acknowledgement. Pluto said that there is no such thing as a lovers’ oath. What more about friendship that was not even staunch to start with? I wouldn’t wish you anything more, I wouldn’t even say thanks for being there. You have come and gone for that mere two years. Being inferior or not, that’s not the crux of problem but rather what diplomatic stuff should I say?
Speaking of relations, I don’t see a point to organize anymore of any plans. Why go through the trouble to beg others to go? No point in complying others… if we even encounter one another, then maybe its just providence. If we don’t, then maybe is just on meant to be so in our tapestry of life.
Who cares? I no longer do…
wx at 8/06/2006 05:34:00 PM