Fuck off. The very first thing he step in was to ask me if i wash it. i was like fuck off man. You volunteered to be the good guy then why the fucking hell should i clean up the mess that was left behind. i was damn pist and wanted to refute him with such words. i resisted. you are the good guy while i am protrayed as an arsehole yet you expect me to clean up the shit that was left behind. what fucking logic is that? no one force you to lend it. you were the person that wanted to be noble and kind so why shove the shit created to me? i am not your cleaner or your fucking servant.
get this fact through the thick skull of yours. ask yourself if i created the mess. No i didnt. then why should i be the one cleaning up. the logic is just not there. get the correct logic flow first before you start ordering people around. get your facts right first before barking out those seneless thoughts of yours. dont be a arsehole and pain in people ass, especially to a by-stander.
wx at 12/19/2007 09:55:00 PM
Fuckers. Been starting most entry so far with the word but do I give a fucking damn. Fuck off man. Don’t give a damn hoot about it. Fuckers. Why should I always be the one that should bottle up my feelings just that you wont get angry? So am I the bastard that gives you a black face and a fucking attitude when you don’t even the least look at your won fucked up face. You say I am petty but who’s the bastard that agrees to such stuff. Fucking hell!!! I mean the least you could have ask me about it then agree to it before saying yes. You are damn good at playing the nice role at the expense of people’s rights. Don’t I have a voice? So u go on be the good person while I am just the “petty” fucker. Fucker off man! 我不是你的玩具任由你摆谱。
When I not pleased you say I giving attitude. You say I petty. You say I am ignorant. You say that I am immature. Fuck off man. Don’t drag every other thing under they sky into this shit of yours. Fucking hell! So everything is my fault. You are only good at being the good innocent fucker, while you manipulated me. Fuck!
我真的没话说了。早已该明了你那种性格，你那永远你对的行为。我无话可说了。会有人了解吗？我不吭声不是我在发脾气而是我已认了。不想把局面弄得更槽，真的累了。默默掉着泪，呆呆地留着血，又如何？你了解？或许这真的错了。错信了你，错以为你真的了解我。那都是借口，那只是你的面具，那是我的愚昧。遗憾早以是过去式，将来更是个不可能的事。我又能如何？
不知是否有人我一样的傻，边打字，边落泪。会笑我傻，我笨吧。是太愚蠢了，是太小气。算了，你要说就让你说吧， 我已彻底的放弃了。麻木了，冷了，连吭声地力气以荡然无存。木头人。。。
窗外的风情万种，夜色绚丽，好漂亮。。。
你会看到这一切？wx at 12/16/2007 11:51:00 PM
ok done up some small bits of the blog... see if you can discover them... lol...
they are kind of small as of the current moment...
wx at 12/15/2007 12:28:00 AM
道不同，路异样。
心已碎，不能回。
天已灰，泪也退。
你的诺言已早以挽不回。
wx at 12/14/2007 12:07:00 AM
Fucking hell. Know that shouldn’t start with such profanities but what to do. Fuckers. Why is that people always just want to find someone whom they can point their fingers at and scold just because something went wrong? Fuckers whom don’t think of how to solve the problem but someone else to scold and screw them up. I mind what the hell, is it always better to screw the innocent person than solving the problem. Fucking hell… can’t solve the problem yourself… if you can’t do it, then don’t find scapegoat to shoulder your uselessness. That is plain lame and fucked up.
Don’t bother pointing fingers when you know that it is no one’s fault. What makes you think that by finding a scapegoat the situation would become better off and the crack would be repaired? Fucking lame presumption. Is this inherently human nature or your own stupidity weakness? Don’t cares don’t bother but just don’t apply that to everyone. It won’t work especially so on me. Sigh, much ado about nothing.
无力去理会，无法去管。
无论你是否明白你的任性会造成别人的难耐，会不自不觉伤害了你最亲近的人。
无所谓，是因为不在乎，是因为心已灰，是因为已不能挽回。
wx at 12/09/2007 03:10:00 PM
无法想像为何她会如此的恨心，无法想像她的决定。难道就无法挽回这一切回到原点？不是在说着自己的故事，而是从他人的身旁而听到。他和她故事或许多听了太多，太多但为何却会有感而发？本因无动于衷但却无法自拔。或许这是想一个人的代价吧？不晓得。。。说好要把她忘了，说要放弃才能得到解脱，但办不到。不知不觉的流下那隐形的眼泪，骗着自己说那是雨点。说不回被她影响到但心却无缘无故地受影响到。不知该如何是好？
Been there done that I guess… anyway that not the main issue here. Was actually suppose to relate something that I heard from an acquaintance however something else crop up in my mind then decide to postpone that though.
Went to meet up some old acquaintances that were acquired during the two years of service. Chatted over a lot of things and found out that many were not whom I knew two years back. Some changed differently, some just plain simple. I mean changes are good and all just that some underwent radical changes which was just more extreme than the others. Some go on to become hall king which was totally revolutionary. Such deep changes which was shocking. Maybe was just not mentally prepared but anyway such changes has to been good since he became hall king. Thought was wondering if the standard has dropped. So sinister thought…
Retrospect wasn’t such bad idea but such feeling should be more subtle I guess. Whatever the case been quite nice knowing what they have been up to these while. It’s like when you meet your ex with someone else and she is better with him than were with you. You would feel glad yet tinge of jealous vinegar spewing out.
Ambivalence is such an understatement...
wx at 12/08/2007 11:16:00 PM
ok been real long since type anything... can u smell the stench of the stale blog? been quite a while since the previous entry as indicated by a friend who .asked for the blog address... she said something which was kind of thought provoking... she said that blogging should be a way of life which i had to agree on some extent... but i digress on issue that there should be entries daily. i mean unless u leading some celebrity life or engaging in sordid activities, if not there is not much spice to be reported rite? who reads boring details or overly emo stuff? bore people to stone...
anyway will update soon on the details thought not insinuating that there will be saucy scandals or bitching stuff which only comes as occasional blitz. need to go rest the eyes... been staring at the screen too long... prelude to more entries i guess...
btw there something else i want her to know:
我不难过，只是不知为何流下那隐形的眼泪。
wx at 12/05/2007 03:33:00 PM